I am ready for a new beginning. I can taste it.... smell it, sometimes I wake up and I feel it. A bright new day, a life of joy, and peace. It does not seem so far away.
The ties that held me back over the last few years have loosened up. People have passed, people have moved on, people have let go. I have let go of most of it. Now, to look forward.
The hardest thing for me has always been identifying what I want. Even with the fullest conviction at one moment, my goals change the next. Short term, I see them clearly, along with the hurdles needed to overcome to achieve them. The long term, still remains cloudy. I know with complete certainty that i can not stay where I am now (in every aspect of life: finances, education, work). But which direction to take?
I often forget I am almost 33. I still feel like I have all the time in the world. People will say that is true. After all 33 is not that old. But it IS old, considering the life experiences I have been through, the obligations I have taken on, and the responsibilities I have chosen and committed myself to. 10 years of inactivity is also hard to overcome.
So there... I am contemplating change. Its but the first step in a positive direction. Being aware of your wishes, of what is holding you back and being able to look at these objectively. The hardest step is step 2: Taking action. I am planning action. Is it the right action? That remains for time to test and approve.
Still optimistic, till next time.
